where the world ends.

saint snobbery

"Japhy and I were kind of outlandish-looking on the campus in our old clothes in fact Japhy was considered an eccentric around the campus, which is the usual thing for campuses and college people to think whenever a real man appears on the scene--colleges being nothing but grooming schools for the middle-class non-identity which usually finds its perfect expression on the outskirts of the campus in rows of well-to-do houses with lawns and television sets in each living room with everybody looking at the same thing and thinking the same thing at the same time while the Japhies of the world go prowling in the wilderness, to find the ecstasy of the stars, to find the dark mysterious secret of the origin of faceless wonderless crapulous civilization."

"'All these people,' said Japhy, 'they all got white-tiled toilets and take big dirty craps like bears in the mountains, but it's all washed away to convenient supervised sewers and nobody thinks of crap any more or realizes that their origin is shit and civet and scum of the sea. They spend all day washing their hands with creamy soaps they secretly wanta eat in the bathroom.'"

why am i such an ass?

who knows. Who CARES!
:3

dovepie defense

I saw a missile today. It flew right over my head.
And I'm partially deaf now.

2 am

Gotta get ready in a little over two hours. Insomnia is killing me. For the past week I've been in the field, training for gun truck missions. Its taken a lot out of me.
From 700 to 2000 was a cycle of loading and unloading radios, machine guns, and hundred round ammo belts. This week will be the same-since we failed to qualify. I'm so fucking tired of this.
In other news, my girlfriend left my ass. Can't say I blame her. I live about 70 miles away from her, and a misplaced bicycle was my only reliable means of seeing her. Plus, I do stupid shit. Fuck my life again and again and again.